i'm getting frustrated ....really frustrated
now i'm starting to askmyself whether all of this was even worth all the trouble and pain i had to endure..oh come on are u that oblivious that u can't carry on from where i left things for u...i mean look here yeh i remember it all...a little too well..but then i and u both knoe what u did..u din ever have to mention it..and i absolutely appreciate it..but then leaving me hanging at the end of the thread...not cool!...honey...not cool at all!....


am i at wrong here?...well perhaps i am..well i dunno..maybe society made u soo perfect that..u don't have the guts to go out of ur path to complete something u started...welll i don't know..
i know i won't suffer this forever...but for now i shall..its almost like i want to since it gives me hope...


well let be god be the solution..and god told me that he would "fill my body with hope and that he will not let me decay"...i was super shocked he said that...but nevertheless i was extremely comforted by that..he also said..tat its not for me to know the times or dates..for things..well yeh that leaves me now....waiting..wating..and waiting.under the walnut tree...hahas...