supz .
i am offical FREE from the stupidity of PW i'm uber glad...
hmm..was actually glad my pw was today...but later changed my mind on that...as it only made my stuuuupid imginations...unworkable
oh welll....i shooke free from the afternoon emo mood...which i brought aroud with me to orchand when me and bernie's pw group headed there right after our Oral presentation...which i gotta admit...was pretty good...i would love to get an a...and would be equally contented with a b nevertheless.....hmmmph yea...
i went home after which and my mom said i'm free to do anthing i likeed...so i went down to the saloon and got my self a pretty little hair job...oh well i think its neater now...though i dun really fancy straight hair that much...oh well..THX MOM


and my ans to my current problem?...all i can say is


"heyy have faith sanya...GOD'S THERE &
afterall you'r still in the fucking game mate"

hello world...i changed my skin after amost a year i think...its been uber long..
but oh well....i was not convinced by most of the previous skins i considered...since they were soo emo..hahhas..its bad enough my posts are emo...why give it an emo vibe as well eigh??
hahhahs...well
apart from that..my mudane life has not taken any sharp turns since last mon....aft the purple balloon incident...hahahas.so cute...well since none of this makes any sense i shall go on to my tamil paper....sianz sia...hmmm...if i'm lucky i might just get a B ..after my horrid oral...a few months back....


u know what...let time supass..i'll comment then
bie!

last day of school....
more unexpected than expected.....well i knew this was coming.i told peter...that the aftermath or another last day is strongly hitting me now.....
so i came to school as usual...listing to some emo song...but this time round...i was truely shaken..well i know y but ...it was troubling to see my self like this...
each step i took up the stairs to my beloved classroom..more and more tears started to whell in my eyes...i kept them constrained in my eyes...and look out at the quadrangle...when i've seen that sight way to many times that it is now...engraved in my heart and memory......
oh well....oh well....there are way to many things which are unspoken...
i speak some but never reveal the rest...this is not the whole picture..its just the corners of the frame...the year end ceremony was good...i did not listen to a single word bro paul was uttering....since i was too engrossed in the "need for speed" game shiraj was playing with his psp...oh the video was good..such things are always nice :)
though each school event they showed only made me more sorrowful...as all i recall from it was the other shadowed memory...

okok...drifting away from the emo side...was stuck in school till 3 plus doing the op dry run 1...
after which the class...whom i totally adore at a time abt now....went down tothe cathay's ben anf jerry's....where we lapaked for lik 3 hrs...eating and eating...ice cream...
the jamm room was bloody cool...la...the counchs..and cushions...and jus us....having a ball of a time....best part playing...."i NEVER"
hahhas....funny sia...downing little tiny cups of water..while eveyone was like...whoo hooo..hoo..sia la...
hahhahs.....so many cups of water...after some time...i dested my so corrupted life..that i looked like i was downing down tiny shots of tiquila..daryl and i had stars in our eyes...when he suggested...next time we're using alcohol...lapaked some more.....headed home 7 plus... and started on pw right away...

arios


i wan the a's to end....thats wen this invisible force field aroud you...diappears...

What a view! It's late summer, after dark, and you're flat on your back in a sleeping bag watching the camp fire's last embers drift up to the heavens. Overhead a magnificent band of stars divides the night—it's the Milky Way.
Now, imagine that scene doubled in brightness and beauty.
No, that's not quite right.
Imagine an entire galaxy of stars spinning overhead. The galaxy's blue-white core of young stars is surrounded by yellow octopus-arms of older siblings. Off to one side a faint red column of gas meanders away from the starry whirlpool and turns in mid-sky toward … you.
Astronomers using NASA's Chandra X-ray observatory have found a place in the Universe where the view may be like that.
---REMARKABLE!!

hello hello hello.....i do realise that i do a hell lot of stupid or "gutsy" things...yet somehow they don't seem that bad in some perspectives....and how i wish what penny proclaims..is true..that, at the most u would just go.."hahhas..how cute"...in ur mind..and let it pass...as times...tries its best to rush past this invisible yet inevitable bond..oh well...i have faith...and these words from don moen's song seems to run in and out of my thoughts frequently

"god will make a way
when there seems to be no way
he works in ways u cannot see
he will make a way for you"


ha ha...i'm feeling better already...apart from that..my weekend is dull...and thats just the way i like it...spent my morning completing my integration tutorial...and understanding that new interals chapx...with no avail of course...
so i went down to suntec as usual on sats for music class..and everything seemed just so pre-planned..and un-unexpected...the freezing temperatures of suntec...the dimmmed orange lights..outside the music school.....the buzzing batman anthem from the batmobile(a child's ride..game thingy)..the dull music clef receptioninst...and 1/2 hr..of blues..tab reading..during class...welll like said..everything was soo...un-unexpected...went home...lazed..did maths..again with no avail...and then...so i started on my grp Op video instead..its looks good....more like some"emo gray's anatony" ad..but what the hell...i'm positive it would reach to the masses...
am doing i&r now....
oh well sunday...is not gonna present me a colossal amt of excitement either..daddy's not well so my entire family...decided to ponn church..hahhahasfunny sia
instead...i've to go queenway..mall wif penny to get some work done for the op presentation...jus to make this unglam group of mine...jus a lil more classy..HAHX..
and tamil tuition in the aft as well....sanya wans a b /a for tamil.....hence i will attempt it

watch me watch..you... x)

helllo..SANYA IS STILL HIGH....
SPENT THE HOLIDAYS DOING PW..AND STUDING TAMIL...
I GUESS..SINCE PROMOS ARE OVER...I'M PREOCCUPIED WITH OTHER THINGS
NEVERTHELESSS....I SHAN'T DROP U AS MY FOCUS...I LIKE:)

i am HAPPY :)

ARIOS AMIGOES....X)

ok my exams are over now what??
i'm suppposed to be free and happy right?
well i guess...i now have more time to watch the oc..and indulge in more oc music...which are perfect examples of "MIND SCREWERS"
I mean seariouslythe more i watched..the more depresssed i got
the more i re-watched...the more screwed i wished i was...until i got to a point of extreme..
depression...and self worth UNrealisation...and now i'm where i am...
where i brought my self....and now there's no turning back...and with the music still humming in the back ground as i speak right now...honest and submissive to all thats left of this deterioating exo-skleton....



well...on a lighter..tone....exams are over and i'm in a "ok-la big deal"
phase...to make matters worse...they said j1's do not need to come to school tomorrow...
mud ..quickly spun around to see if i was ok(full aware of current news)...from our desks....in the exam hall...
and i guess he was too late...tears stood stale at the corners of my eyes..
haha..oh welll to kick me out of my emo phase..me and 2 others went down to island cremery
i tried the '?" flavour..what the hell was that i have no clue..but hmm...but not bad..
i saw jerrica there...SUPZ DUDETTE!
then went to town ...TO Help my friend choose a bag...and went home...

emoed some more....watched tv...went down to play hockey...

and here i am typing this out...hmmmm..haiiz....aaaaghhhhh
x)



-focus on your exams sweet o'child of mine...i don't need you stop running now...after you have come so far...better be mad at me than at yourself...